Pre-op

So today was my pre-op. I must say that I don't feel like blogging about it because I feel absolutely awful. However, I want to document this process so that if I'm ever foolish enough to think that I want to try for a 3rd child, I can look back and read this to remind myself that I never, ever, ever want to go through this again.

The main purpose of this appointment was to insert a stick of sterile seaweed into my cervix to make it dilate. This procedure produced pain that rivaled child birth. It hurt like a mother!!! I held it together until I got to my car but then cried for a good 30 minutes. I wish I could say that the pain had subsided, but is hasn't. It's just constant and unrelenting. The Dr said that if the pain became unbearable, I could "pull it [the seaweed and gauze] out" myself, but that thought also makes me cringe in pain.

I won't go into graphic detail, as I'm not sure that readers of this blog would appreciate it. All I can say is that my children better appreciate all I've had to go through to bring them into the world. Not only was the in-vitro process gruelling with Greg, but now round 2 seems to be starting off worse. As if childbirth itself isn't enough hell to endure...all of this is just to get pregnant! Somehow I had this idea that IUI would be so much easier. Little did I know that before I could even attempt IUI, I'd have to endure all this other stuff. Sometimes being a woman sucks....REALLY sucks.